The results for TMA3 are in.
Ok, so it was poetry. And I’ve never really read any poetry, let alone try to write any. But I liked my poems. My tutor obviously didn’t, even if she did say they contained ‘energy’, ‘humour’ and a ‘unique perspective’.
My marks are going down and down. After being delighted with the score for TMA1, ever since, I’ve been disappointed. Is it because I’ve got worse or because I need to work harder to even maintain a consistent score? Or is it because I had a different tutor mark the first one who rated my work too highly and has therefore given me a distorted sense of my abilities or because my new tutor marks too harshly and is now destroying my confidence?
I don’t think I write stuff the OU want to read. I write stuff I want to read.
Even if that means submitting work in the shape of a bagel and writing stories about girls getting killed on the way to their wedding and cats being decapitated.
I don’t want to write endless descriptions and have my work crammed full of metaphors no one’s going to notice unless I mention it in the commentary.
I just want to write trash.
To avoid being disappointed, maybe I should take a clichéd leaf out of Sophie Ellis Bextor’s book and become a pessimist. I bet she hasn’t even written a book. And if she did, it’d just get published anyway, what with her being famous and that.
Ok, plan B. Get famous and get published and forget about stupid tutors and their ‘blah blah blah, you’re crap’ rubbish.
At least I can’t get a worse score for the next one. Oops, nearly forgot.
Must. Remain. Pessimistic.